If youth but knew, if age but could.
- Henri Estienne.
How many times have you said to yourself , I wish I could go back and do it all again with the head I have on me now? We thought when we were young that we knew it all. We knew better than our parents and teachers, then when we are older we realise that we knew nothing and our parents and teachers were the ones with the wisdom.
How I wish I could go back to my secondary school days and get my head down and study.
Why was I so desperate to leave school at sixteen? Up until then I was doing well, although a little push from my teachers and parents and I might have been persuaded to stay on at school. I could have been there another two years instead I went to college, yes, I studied and became a Nursery Nurse and I loved it but I secretly wanted to teach, I just didn't think I was clever enough. Looking back with maturity, I could have done it, I should have done it but my head was too full of boys, and going dancing and music. I was young.
On a lighter note. I see the toys of today's youth and wish I as young enough to enjoy playing with them. All the things we didn't have as youngsters. I remember making furniture for my Sindy dolls from cardboard boxes and matchboxes. Look at the stuff girls have today for their dolls. Sindy has cars and caravans, scooters, large houses, the list is endless. Battery operated cars that children sit inside and press a button and it moves. I didn't even have a bike, I had a scooter. Trampolines, huge ones in everyones garden. I want a jump on one of those. I always wanted to work in toy shop as a Saturday job while at school instead I ended up in a sweet shop and it wasn't as good as it sounds.
When I was seven or eight years old I had friends at school, twins, who lived in a fancy house with a huge garden, I lived in a tenement close so a garden was a luxery for me.
In their garden they had a shed which had been converted into a playhouse for them. It had a tiny child sized table and chairs, lace curtains on the window and rugs on the floor.We sat at the table with a china tea set and had a party. Their mum brought us sandwiches and cake. It was like another world to me and even today I remember it vividly.
In our garden I will relive my youth through my granddaughter, we will have a shed and convert it into a playhouse and it will have a table and chairs and lace curtains. It has to be big enough for me to fit inside and when it's ready my granddaughter and I will have a tea party and I will have come full circle and be reliving my youth again. I can't wait.