Through the years I have visited spiritualists,sometimes as a giggle with friends and sometimes really wanting some evidence of an afterlife. I went once with my mum, there was a large audience and we were singled out,we pretended not to be together but the spiritualist was having none of it she said we were so close she couldn't separate us. She then went on to describe my house and how I had been sitting crying that very morning. The room she said was a bedroom but with more furniture than a normal bedroom, there was too much stuff in it. She told me I would be moving soon and not to worry.
Actually my house was a council
one riddled with dampness and we were all sleeping in one room so it
was rather packed.Within a few months we had bought our first house (something we never thought would happen) and
were able to move out of the damp one. Coincidence? No, there was so
much more she said that was true.
When I was engaged to my hubby I visited another spiritualist. This was at The Spiritualist association headquarters in an old Victorian building. I was shown into a very small room I remember it having a roaring fire, the medium was a little old lady. As soon as I entered she began speaking to someone I couldn't see saying,"She's really young so you'll have to go slowly."
Well that scared me right away and I had no idea why I had decided to book this sitting. The first thing she said to me
was,"I'm being asked why you took your ring off on the bus and put it in
your pocket,you don't have to hide anything in here."
I was so
freaked out I was shaking, I had taken my ring off my finger while sitting on the bus in case she sussed it was
an engagement ring,I have no idea how she could have known that. I was then told that my guardian angel was walking
beside me with his left hand on my shoulder,when I went home my mum said
that my grandfather always walked like that with my gran because she
was so small. I can't remember much of what she told me that day but I remember being very scared.
Recently my daughter and her friends all visited a
spiritualist. She called me the next day to tell me what happened. The spiritualist said a woman was showing her a photo. The photo was of a young woman with jet black hair piled up in a beehive
style,she wanted my daughter to know that she didn't always look like
the old white haired woman she was before she died. This described my
mother-in law to a tee, she also talked about having her rollers in her
hair even when she was unwell (true) and said she had heard what my
daughter said to her before she passed.
There was a funny moment
when my daughter said that her gran had said (through the spiritualist)
that she should train to be a medium as she wanted to speak to her all
the time. My mother in law used to phone me about ten times a day and
demand to where where i was if she couldn't get in touch. My daughter
said,"Could you just imagine me having gran in my head 24/7 ?" I think
she'll be skipping that particular request.
We always take mediums, spiritualists, physics, angel believers with a huge pinch of salt until they say something that resonates with us then that doubt creeps back that they may indeed be in touch with our departed loved ones.
I would love to believe angels exist. The thought of an ethereal being watching over me and helping me through life makes me happy. I have read Lorna Byrne's book Angels in her Hair about her experience with angels. It was the spoken word book I listened to an hearing all those stories in Lorna's own voice made me believe what she had to say. It's an extraordinary story of angels in her life every single day and having long conversations with them.
A few weeks ago she was a guest on the TV programme This Morning and I couldn't wait to hear what she had to say. Holly and Phil asked the questions we would all like the answer to,"What is the name of my angel" "Why do angels not stop bad things happening?" etc..
I was very disappointed in Lorna's answers, she was very hesitant and was like a politician avoiding a straight answer.
I don't really know where I'm going with this I'm just thinking aloud. If there is no life after death, if our departed loved ones do not communicate with mediums and if there are no such things as angels then what does that mean for people like Lorna or other spiritualists who say they are.
Does it mean that instead of seeing and speaking to angels and spirits for their whole lives they are simply disillusioned and slightly mad?
It's one thing to have a belief but another to say that angels follow you to school each day and speak to you. I really want to believe and I am one of those people who on finding at white feather take it as a sign an angel has left a calling card but that's not enough for me I want to know the truth.
I've started reading a book called Angelic Wisdom Trilogy by Richard Holmes, now this is a man I would love to meet and speak with, there's so much information about angels and what they do and all the different levels of angels it made my head spin, how does he know all this? where did all this information come from?
Could it be that angels really do exist? I really will have to get back and finish reading that book.
Watch this space.....